What stopped me from blogging in the last 3 months?
I started blogging in Dec 2016 from where I found my true calling. Blogging gave me a true sense of achievement from what I love, both creatively and financially. I earned through freelance work for the first 3 years. Then gradually wanted to grow with stable earnings through writing. That’s when I joined the community I started with as a blogger. You feel the power within you when you maintain your personal blog and learn new things at your workplace. So now when all is looking good then why am I not able to blog for the last 3 months?
I blame it on Netflix
Working 5 days a week and enjoying weekends on OTT is the best I can imagine. I confess that Netflix is an addiction. Not because I want to watch the whole of Saturdays and Sundays but because I subscribe for only a month.
Initially it started as a trick to curb my addiction to search for something new and keep on watching one after another. But now I realise that just grabbing as much as I can before the subscription expires has made me more vulnerable to watching.
Nevertheless, I will stop this because weekends were primarily kept for my personal blog and not for Netflix.
I don’t blame it on Bharatanatyam classes
Bharatnatyam is the best that has happened to me in the past few years. Dancing takes me closer to God and away from my daily deadlines. Now since the offline classes have resumed, I get a chance to meet people other than my family and that’s so fresh. Every other person is an inspiration to fight back against impossibilities in life.
When I listen to the lifestyle of other dancers, I count back on my blessings and get charged up to go back to my usual life and keep working harder. All thanks to Blogchatter to accommodate my absence for 2 hours twice a week due to my classes. Of course, my responsibility increases to accomodate this time.
I love the work schedule that allows me to pack up at 5:30 PM on weekdays (excluding emergencies) after which I close my eyes for around 20 mins before I switch back to my other life. After evening tea, it is my dance practice time that has taken over my personal writing time.
Still, I don’t blame my practice sessions and I will make everything alright.
Absence of house help
I used to ignore but now I accept that every small help from maids and servents leads us to take another creative job. In fact, I have taken up writing professionally only after my kids were a little independent and I could delegate the rest of the housework to my staff efficiently. But yes, there comes a lull period when all your planning is messed up and you need to give those extra hours to the house instead of blogging.
I know nothing is impossible. It’s just that a few more hours are given to housework instead of writing but I will manage. After all, time keeps changing.
Mom is the world
The last 3 months have been trying for all of us, especially for my mom. She’s my pillar of strength and I have seen the courage with which she fights back life’s impossibilities. But this time, she was feeling weak and that broke me even more from inside. In many places, I wanted to be with her doing nothing just standing next to her. Just being there for her but life entangles you with numerous responsibilities and tests your patience.
It wasn’t easy to train my subconscious mind when I had to read my old written posts. I checked my achievements and found that the strategy was the same. Only that I was lacking self-control. I had to start all over again so that I freshly feed my subconscious with positive thoughts.
When I couldn’t visit her, I challenged myself to remain indifferent to her but that was impossible. I still need her to listen to me and give my ear to what she has to say.
Conscious effort of inviting distractions in the last 3 months
At the end of this post, I would still not say that I don’t have time. I have time but I am not using it wisely. I am just challenging myself to check that what if I waste my weekends? 48 hours are not less to do what you like even after doing other not so important things. But I am just chilling. Chilling the other way around after which I feel guilty.
It was after a friend called up for some official work and asked why am I not writing anything on my blog? You know what wrong are you doing but when someone from the opposite side asks the same, you just wake up. I guess that is why we value friendship so much. They are the ones who bring you back on the right path.
Well, I am feeling so good and light hearted after talking to you all. Guess what? I am getting ideas for my next blog post titled ‘What’s keeping me away from reading regularly?’
Chalo, let me draft my new post, until then you read my thoughts above and do share your opinion. At some point in life, did you feel the same?